Through my lens: Unspoken thoughts

I don't know why I close my eyes, Ignore the things on which people sigh. I don't know why people say I am adamant, I am not bothered even as i am invariant. I don't know why whenever I do this or that, eyebrows are raised and am called selfish brat. I dont know why I am clueless being, events occuring around although am seeing. I don't know why i became complex, when evrything is clear and can be simplex. I don't know why I remain introvert, when friends are trying to make me an extrovert. I don't know why I don't share my feelings, Am I uncomfortable and afraid of public dealings! I don't know why I keep on smiling, people say something underneath I am hiding. I don't know why I am shy, I am called mysterious as I only say hi! I don't know why it's hard to believe anyone, I am over protective and doubt everyone. I don't know why I fear, noone would understand me,noone would hear. I don't know why I am cursing me, It's special, t...

In my dreams, Lying on this concrete ground, I see darkness all around, Need u Thee but could not found, I search u Thee all around. In my dreams, I fill this void with many facets, Reduce myself to empty set, Standing at a open gate, I search u Thee in my fate. In my dreams, I see something very bright, A shadow in reach of my sight, Where should I go-left or right? I search u Thee whole night. In my dreams, I roam around in a cart, Searching u in world's each part, Is this the end or the start? I found u Thee in my heart.

Vague vision, hasty decision, uncertain mission, in the veil of uncertainty. nasty acts, doubts on facts, unpleasantly reacts in the veil of uncertainty. brooding on complication, jumping on conclusion, away from realization, in the veil of uncertainty. turn to thee....... believe in revision, fight for dedication, enlighten with determination, in the veil of certainty. hope with new horizon, powerful with firm action, cheerful in the beautiful creation, in the veil of certainty. ps: wrote this while studying AI(paper 605).Ah!!! what a concentration do i have?

लहरों से डर कर नौका पार नहीं होती, कोशिश करने वालों की कभी हार नहीं होती. नन्हीं चींटी जब दाना लेकर चलती है, चढ़ती दीवारों पर, सौ बार फिसलती है. मन का विश्वास रगों में साहस भरता है, चढ़कर गिरना, गिरकर चढ़ना न अखरता है. आख़िर उसकी मेहनत बेकार नहीं होती, कोशिश करने वालों की कभी हार नहीं होती. डुबकियां सिंधु में गोताखोर लगाता है, जा जा कर खाली हाथ लौटकर आता है. मिलते नहीं सहज ही मोती गहरे पानी में, बढ़ता दुगना उत्साह इसी हैरानी में. मुट्ठी उसकी खाली हर बार नहीं होती, कोशिश करने वालों की कभी हार नहीं होती. असफलता एक चुनौती है, इसे स्वीकार करो, क्या कमी रह गई, देखो और सुधार करो. जब तक न सफल हो, नींद चैन को त्यागो तुम, संघर्श का मैदान छोड़ कर मत भागो तुम. कुछ किये बिना ही जय जय कार नहीं होती, कोशिश करने वालों की कभी हार नहीं होती p.s : not a self composition

Fly….. cranes fly… There in the blue And silent sky. Across the miles Beyond the seasons Over the ocean Beyond horizons So fly…let’s fly… With silver wings of hope Fly ,let us fly. Fear not the morrow Or the tough way She watches over us All night and day. Fear not the morrow Fear not the day She is there to guide us In every way. When the wings tire Just turn to Her Soft arms will gather us Loving tender. So fly…. O let’s fly Fear not the future Cease not to try Fly… fly…fly…

मैं गई अपने मष्तिष्क में , वहाँ मैंने एक यन्त्र चलते देखा बड़ी तीव्र गति थी उस यन्त्र की , रुकने का नाम ही नही लेता वहाँ बैठे बैठे , खो गई मैं ख्यालो में, इश्वर के इस रचनात्मक कार्य में समझ न सकी इसकी तीव्रता का राज़, सोचती रह गई , क्यों है यह हमारा ताज़ अपनी मस्ती में चलता यह,कभी इठलाता कभी इतराता , मानो समझता हो अपने आपको यह विश्व का राजा क्या है इसका अनोखा राज़ , क्यों हुकुम चलाता है यह बन सरताज समझ सकी ना मैं इसका राज़ बड़ा अद्भुत है इसका काज p.s- Inspiration from manju di

Confusion is widespreading all over-inside me,outside me,all around me.Its like fire which is burning each an every tissue,cell of my brain.Has my brain stop functioning?Has it lost its ability to think? The thought process is striving to jump to results,but ....no outcome. confusion.....confusion... and confusion.. What should be my next step so as to take up the right direction? I am standing at a point from where i can see many paths,but alas! none seems intresting to me.Which path should i follow to start off my future journey?Each one is so long that other end is invisible,it fades into darkness. If i choose any would i be able to find my goal n achieve it? What am i looking for? what are my interests? God!!! please help